Saturday, 22 December 2007
Today is sat n the start of my wk long holiday. Hmm... but i dun seems to feel excited abt it, mayb too tired. N oso for the past few days had been feeling v moody. All bcos his fault. Haha.... everytime i always blame him for making me temperamental. But it's oso the fact. Hmm... smtimes really dislike him for affecting my mood. Quite an appropriate word is 又爱又恨
One moment we can be good, then the other moment we can be squabbling. Y leh? Ain't we being childish smtimes? Hmm... once we make peace n clear the misunderstanding then back to normal again. Super funny loh...
I really wanna voice out tt u seems to neglect me for the past few days... make me so sad n angry. N so funny u feel sad for wat? Just bcos i didn't reply ur sms? I'm sad tt's y i dun wan to reply. Can't u sms me again until i reply? 3 times is a lot meh? Can't u understand the difference between frozen n volcano erupting? Mayb if frozen to the extend tt it can't be defroze, then u use microwave or laser oso no use. Hmm... Laser can melt things meh? I duuno leh...
Smtimes really feel tt i gotta be v understanding otherwise i'll blow up easily. Mayb bcos i only gotta care abt myself for the past 3 yrs tt's y i'm not tt understanding. U r super contradicting smtimes. Tell me u r used to being alone n independent n yet still need me for wat? Ain't u being greedy? Tell me it's not a bad idea when got ppl caring n concering abt u, then u just find anyone since there are few billions ppl on earth so surely u can find anyone. Can't u be more straightforward? I am i, not sm1... U give me vague answer then i'll reply u vaguely. 拿我没办法吧？
Smtimes i wonder have i been treating u quite good tt's y u seems to take things for granted. Yet smtimes i feel tt u r treating me quite good. Ain't i'm being contradicting?
Smtimes really can't stand u. Grant me wish n yet set me a deadline to use it. Smmore still say while stock last... #@&*... Where got such person one? I grant u wish, i oso nvr set deadline on u to use it.
U ask me whether i look forward to meeting up. On one hand, i did look forward. On the other hand, i'm scared. I'm really afraid tt after we meet up, then suddenly we dun contact each other anymore. Y r u so sure tt u wldn't? I dun seems to have the courage... I'm afraid tt everytime it always turn out to be the same in the end. 焦虑不安的心。。。
Hope u received ur surprise soon... can't be tt long unless the postman delivered wrongly.
