Friday 30 November 2007
OMG, i can't express how happy i m when i finally found back my sg travel forum. Seems tt lady luck is wif me today. I went to a lot of those forumers blog n the link in their blog is the old forum website. Finally found 1 which is the correct link. Yuppy....
Too bad u r not around these few days. Haha... seems tt u r getting 4getful. Mayb when u r back, u 4get me le wow... Getting older as the clock ticks. It's a fact. Dun have to argue wif me. Quite touch tt when sm1 still send me long sms when he didn't noe how 2 use dictionary in the hp, gotta type each alphabet one by one. I didn't noe until u told me n it's still me who taught u how to use dictionary. Can't stop laughing at u...
Well, do i miss u when u r not around? I dunno cos pre-occupied with work during the day, turn in quite early at night, so mayb dun have the time to miss u. Mayb in next apr, i shld ask u this question when i'm not around for 2-3 wks, tt's make a greater difference compared to 2-3 days.
Hmm... sm1 send me sms when he's overseas... i shld feel touch isn't it? Shld i hope tt 1 day u'll discovered tt u dun only feel those 3 things? I dunno, mayb by then i dun feel anything. It's complicated.
On one hand, i do hope tt we can meet up. On the other hand, i'm afraid tt after we meet up, the feeling will change n we become awkward. I may be fickle minded n my feelings may changed. Sometimes isn't it good tt we remain this way? Nvr meet up b4 but still has endless topics to chat. Tt's y i'm not actually keen tt arsenal will win. N i oso dun hope tt my man u will lose. All along meeting up is nvr within ur 3 things so y r u so stubborn when i try to avoid fulfiling the bet? I just dun understand.
I'm actually quite scared tt the more concern u r abt me cos i don't believe tt a gal n a guy can maintain purely friendship. It's super hard. How special is ur definition of special friend?
想念雨天，想念你。。。
Tuesday 27 November 2007
Good to be @ home @ such hour. Went straight home after meeting at a client office.
Feel good cos mood recently quite good, although feel tired n like to sleep a lot.
Exams coming but no mood to study, too tired to study, restless to study....
Seems like u'll win, hmm... is it good or bad? I dunno....
Always gotta crack my brain against u, use a lot of brain power wow... since u say u become more clever, hmm then did i become more clever or not, haha...
U so funny, 1 moment so fierce, 1 moment so cold, 1 moment wanna good to me... Well, shld i be touch when u say u deliberately do something out of concern? I say u r contradicting n u turn it back tt i'm contradicting. Shall ask u y u feel i'm contradicting.
Hmmm... u say tt since it's become a habit n dun wanna change... Think u r making it ur habit but i feel tt i can still change it cos it haven't become a habit to me yet. I feel i'm still ok wif it. On 1 hand, i wan it to become a habit to u so u'll feel there's something missing if it doesn't occur. Tt's y i purposely dun do it n u become disappointed. If i didn't try, how wld i noe u wld get disappointed?
Sometimes feel tt relationship is like a drug. Once addicted to it, u'll sink deeper n deeper. But without it, u can still live. However if u get addicted, the process of quitting it is quite painful.
想念雨天，想念你。。。
Sunday 25 November 2007
Haven't been blogging for the past few days. Well, nothing special. Still the same old me. Sleep alot over the wkend. Dunno y, just fall asleep once lie down on the bed. Probably too exhasuted.
Weather is so hot recently. Rain just stop but didn't wash away all the heatness. Can't it rain for few days instead of only a short moment?
Guys r super special species animal. Y are guys as fickle minded as gals? Ain't guys different from gals? When a guy say nvm actually he mind, so funny, ain't guys more straight forward than gals? Hmm.... or is he the special species?
Is it tt when u r concern abt someone, then u will feel happy, sad, angry, disappointed? Hmm... shld be bah, if not concern, wldn't feel anything @ all. Didn't noe tt u'll be disappointed just bcos of an unintentional incident, feel disappointed then tell me, still say nvm, i thought it's nothing tt's y i didn't bother to probe further.
Sometimes play mind games wif u so u wldn't not wat exactly i'm thinking. It's easier for me to turn it around if it's not at my advantage. Play mind games so tt unintentionally u may reveal wat u r thinking.
Y sometimes u r so 霸道？When want it means want it, nvr ask me for my opinion. But yet i dun mind tt u make the decision. Is it really true tt 男人不坏女人不爱？
Hmm... trust u then believe u? Wat u mean? Y r we making each other so confusing? U say u r confused by me sometimes. I'm oso v confused by u sometimes. Well, not gonna read too deep cos u always say i twist n turn wat u mean. I rather make u confused than me being confused by u.
Tt's funny, we quarrel even though we nvr meet before. Mayb our past life is really 欢喜冤家。Sometimes, quarrelling is oso a type of 情趣。。。Don't u agree?
Just like the way we r now.
想念雨天，想念你。。。
Wednesday 21 November 2007
Y do i have a sense of sadness inside me? I can't possibly feel sad abt myself cos there's nothing to be sad abt n i have long forgotton those long long time ago. It's just like paper being torn n blown away by the wind. Sometimes i really like myself for being able to forget those memories which i dun wanna remember.
Is it tt i feel sad for u? Hmm... y do i feel so? Bcos of wat u told me? But it has already pass so i hope tt u live for urself n not for others. Time will heal everything. I can do it so can u. Jia you! Live for the future n not live in the past.
想念雨天，想念你。。。
Saturday 17 November 2007
Attended a friend ROM today. Shldn't getting married be just between the two person? Y has marriage got to involved so many ppl? Mayb i just run away to an unknown place n get married, haha....
Life is complicated.... Mayb i really pull myself back or i'm just simply too tired to care.
Thursday 15 November 2007
I'm simply too tired, just purely exhausted!!! Has been working late for the past few days. Now still @ work... Well, to some ppl, it may not be very late. To me, i'm really exhausted. I no longer have the energy anymore, probably fully depleted after 3 yrs. These few days i dun even have the time to read newspaper, check my emails, watch a bit of tv... just return home purely to bath n sleep... Damn tired.... I wonder how long can i still hang on?
Not enuf sleep, pimples popping up. Now i noe y for the past 3 yrs, my skin condition is so bad. Alot of reason, stress... not enuf sleep.... all these result in hormones changes. Haiz.... these few days quite a lot of popping up especially when i dun have enuf sleep. Think really gonna change my job nature cos my skin condition dun seems to approved. Previously so good, always have enuf sleep while studying n all along i seldom turn in late until i started work.
Simply too tired to bother abt any other things. Gotta sleep until enuf this coming wkend to recover back my energy. Think dun have time to study again... Just wanna sleep....
Will next wk be a better wk?
Sunday 11 November 2007
Read the Sunday Times n there was an article abt a school teacher losing $61k due to $150k lottery scam. I always thought tt unaffluent ppl would be subjected to such scam, even such an affluent person would be a victim. This shows the greed side of human. Where on earth got free n easy $ in the world, if there is, then nobody needs to work.
Hmm... nothing has changed. But deep inside, there is changes. I will tell u when the times come. Of course, on the surface, nothing changes. If i say there is, wldn't it be v awkard? Mayb bcos a lot of things r within my reach n if there is something which is not within my reach, then i may feel excited n based on my character, i think i wld want to get the thing within my reach. But after getting it, wld i still feel excited since i already got it? We shall c...
U may wan to noe more abt me but now i no longer as keen as before although i didn't tell u so. Deep inside, there is already changes. Wldn't u be disppointed if u get to noe more abt me? Yah, mayb as wat u say, i may be more scary than u. Sometimes, it hurts to noe the truth. When u say i dun really noe u n shldn't i be more sure abt u 1st, smtimes ppl dun even really noe themselves. Smtimes, i feel tt u r super cute n funny, when u r serious, really looks like a shu shu. Comeon loh, it's not as if i wanna enter into a life commitment, wat think twice, wat regret. Even if getting married, oso can divorce, isn't it? It's not tt there is no way back tt kind of thing.
Now i think it's a bit scary if u noe me better n better. U seems to noe wat i'm thinking, then hard for me to hide things from u n i gotta have hard time to trick u. Later not fun anymore...
Yah, like the present way tt we r now... Having someone to confide in, having someone to bright me up, cracking my brain every now n then n yet no commitment... Sometimes commitment is a burden... Feel tt it's fun now... but as to how long the fun will last, nobody noes... Mayb haven't have such fun for quite a long time, tt's y feel fun now... or it's just a moment of playfulness? Think i'm oso quite playful once in a while...
I said tt before. Feeling comfortable n having chemistry r equally important. If dun feel comfortable, dun even talk abt chemistry. If feel comfortable but no chemistry, oso no used. Experienced all these before tt's y i can say so...
想念雨天，想念你。。。
Saturday 10 November 2007
Has been thinking is it tt i really dun lack anything? I seems not to be lacking any monetary items. Well, i think currently the only 2 things tt is not within my reach is a car n a house. Other than these 2, i think i'm able to afford any other monetary items. Hp, laptop... all these r within my reach. It's just whether i wan them or not.
Sold one of my investment fund recently. Stock mkt is volatile recently, make the right decision to sell it since this investment is not earning much, only 7%. N after selling it, the stock market was plunging.... Lucky sold it earlier. Can use the few hundred bucks earned for yr end shopping. Gonna go shopping @ end of dec since not travelling... Have not gone for shopping for a long time... Cos no longer enjoy it...
Sad... Feel better after sleeping although still feel sad. Mayb u r right, when feel sad or stress, just Zzzzzz.... Well, mayb it is only applicable only when i feel sad n not when i'm angry or stress... Mayb everything will change after today, nobody noes... Shldn't woman intuition be v accurate? Y i seems to have the feeling tt it's just another cycle? I'm sick of it.... can have some difference? Y everytime gotta go through the same things? When is changes coming?
Sometimes happiness is short-lived. One moment u feel so then the next moment u dun feel so. Is it tt human cannot be too blissful otherwise u'll lose it? Well, mayb the only constant in the world is changes.
Being honest is a virtue. I hate liars. Although i feel sad when u r being honest, but on the other side, i feel glad tt u r being honest. Sometimes a word sorry doesn't compensate everything.
Mayb u r rite... Am i really sure or not? Or am i just jumping into a conclusion without careful thought. Time is the best medicine n best answer.
Having failure in ur life doesn't mean tt u can't succeed throughout ur life. Failure is just part n parcel of life. Must be brave to forget the past n face the future, nobody live in the past.
I have make up my mind, we shall let fate determine the destiny. I dun wanna control it le... i'm tired. If it's mean to be ur, it'll be urs. If it ain't to be urs, then it just doesn't.
Thursday 8 November 2007
How come recently my mood is a bit temperamental? Can feel unhappy immediately just bcos of sms. N can feel happy the next moment just bcos of another sms. Wanna control my mood n dun let it swing so fast. Mayb it's only the past 2 days bah...
Hmm... sometimes instead of letting fate controlling the destiny, shldn't we be controlling our own destiny? Well, our bet is still on cos we r not the one who can control who will be on top of the table by 26 Dec. But as for the prize that you want which we previously bet, is something tt is within ur control. Tt's y i ask u whether u wanna let fate control the destiny or u wanna control the destiny. U dun seems to understand until i tell u so obviously. Well, when there is no hidden meaning, u thought there is. But when there is hidden meaning, then u thought dun have.
Not everything is explanatory... Just say no reason lah, y give me so lame answers n spotted by me...Mayb if ur asnwer is not so lame then i may still get tricked by u. Glad tt u just say no reason.... Somethings r just unexplainable... It's just the feelings tt counts.... N feelings r those tt r hard to explain...
Y i seems to have the blissful feeling n yet i'm oso scared?
Wednesday 7 November 2007
Although i like rain a lot, but it oso make me so angry. Finally able to turn in @ around 12pm after tossing in the bed. Then before i reach dreamland, it started to rain n i was woken up by the downpour. So so so angry!!! Y it started to rain when i finally can turn in? So sometimes even the things tt u like a lot will oso make u angry but hopefully not everytime, otherwise i'll dislike it.
Sunday 4 November 2007
Decided to remove this link in my travelogue cos dun wan this blog to face too much exposure.
Reformat my com again. Stupid com, bring me so many problems. Yah, feel sad bcos of the link but i suddenly remember mayb i can search the internet history in my office com. Hope i didn't clear the history.
A bit disappointed tt my man u draw. Ah... man u shld win and be on top of the table. Anyway i got nothing to lose, haha... If man u won, i'll have a prize n if arsenal won, i'll have a dinner treat. Seems tt our fate is not there yet. Ok, shall bet wif u again. Well, this time there is a higher chance of either u win or i win...or tt's y u purposely bet on this? But who noes, mayb by 26 Dec, the team tt is at the top of the table is neither man u nor arsenal. Let fate determine our destiny...
Saturday 3 November 2007
Finally can blog, was feeling so bored on fri. My com can't even log into window... so angry... Think too reliant on com, if no com, feel tt as if life is not complete... Mayb a com has a higher priority than getting a bf.
In the end, reformat my com. Luckily all my files are in the D drive. Only my favourites links are lost, a bit sad, cos got a travel forum link which i can't remember the website. Haiz... Gonna back up my favourites more frequently in the future. Haiz... After reformatting, can't access to control panel n some problems too... Hmm... think really gonna consider to buy a laptop during next yr IT fair. Then can oso bring the laptop to taiwan, able to copy the photos to the laptop otherwise not enuf memory card to store for 3 wks of photos... n oso got quite a few things gonna consider too... like laundry stuff, luggage issues etc... Not as simple.... Too many things to plan or i'm planning too details?
Yah, roughly plan the places i wanna visit, 21 days not EUNF to tour all the places i wanna go. Gonna chop chop chop some destinations cos i dun wanna a v hectic schedules. I wanna tour at a pace tt i'm comfortable wif.
Yah... today is the big showdown between man u n arsenal. Bet wif u for fun sake. Didn't noe tt u r so clever... Whether u win or i win, we'll may meet, unless they draw. 2 out of 3 possibilities. Hmm... As wat u say, shall depends on fate. If they really draw, then we r not fated to meet yet.
I thought tt there is only chances of you getting tricked by me but i didn't noe tt i can oso get tricked by you. Haha... witty gal pitting against wisdom shu shu. V fun... Shall use my brain more wouldn't be tricked by u.
Fate will determine our destiny...
