Monday, 22 October 2007
Tonite is such a good weather... my favourite weather... rainy day.... Although i noe gg out on rainy day is a hassle... but staying @ home is so comfortable especially lying on my bed...
Wanna blog but in the end, spend my time chatting wif friends in msn, watching soccer highlights, browsing website... haha.... always 分心。。。
My boss agreed to me taking a mth leave in Mar/Apr wow.... Didn't expect this... Well... most likely staying until Jun bah... Since we agreed tt after i took a long break, i'll go back then after tt he'll oso take a long break n we shall dicuss when he's back after returning from break. While in between, when i feel tired, i would be taking short break... C how it goes...
Having a long break is one of the reason y i'm happier recently... Finally... feel happier.... Able to do something tt i like.... Something tt keep me gg on....
Sometimes really hope tt there is someone sharing wif me my joys n sorrow..... But oso dun wan someone to become a priority in my life when i am just an option in their lifes. When u r an option, u wish to be a priority. When u r the priority, is it really wat u wan? Dilemma....
Even if someone tell me tt i can find tt person to chat.... i oso dun wan it to be always like tt...although there is someone to listen to my joy n sorrow.... sooner or later... it become a habit... when i'm so used to this habit n when there is changes.... it become so hard to change....
I'm so used to being alone for the past 3 yrs... sometimes i oso wonder whether i can devote part of my time to another person or not... can i be understanding when all these while i dun need 2 bother abt caring for others n only myself? wat if we get to noe each other better n better... u discovered i'm not good enuf? u discovered tt i got so many flaws? u discovered tt i'm not as cute as u thought? u discovered tt i'm not as humourous as u thought? So many IFs......
Feelings will come n pass, it may not stay... now may find tt there is just so much so much... the next moment may be just so little so little... Relationship is just so complicated... I just wan a simple life!!!
