Monday, 17 September 2007
Recently feel v slack. Dun feel like doing anything, feel v moody. Haiz.... y i'm so moody?
Received a sms from my poly friend ytd n she invite me to her ROM. Now then i realise tt we r of suitable age to get married. Cos since i graduated from poly, i only attended my ex-colleague wedding n she oso got married at quite a young age - 25. To me, getting married before 30 is considered young to me. Mayb b'cos i'm still single, tt's y i say so. Anyway my friend is a few yrs older than me, she must be of a mature age to get married le bah.
Sometimes, i oso wonder whether i would meet my mr right? Cos i feel tt my social circle is quite small but i oso dun feel like purposely widen my circle. Sometimes i'm oso quite happy wif my current life. Carefree with no commitment, only commitment is work n study. Feeling suffocated juggling wif these two already.
I long for a long long break. Like this chinese phrase: 人生不如意的事情十之八九。 Life is nvr smooth sailing. I suddenly feel tt my future is so blank. I dunno wat will happen tml. Wat if i haven' t accomplished the things i wanna do?
Envy little tiger.for these few days. Suddenly i feel like getting out of job. Yup, i intending to quit next yr. Dun be surprised when reading this. As i say before, wanna treat myself something when i turn 25, but if i treat myself 1 yr earlier, shld be fine bah. Now i planning when shld i pop this to my boss? Definitely not earlier than Apr cos i wanna get my bonus 1st. Well, even if it's 2 mths only, it's definitely better than nothing. Didn't hope more than tt cos somehow this yr when i got my bonus, i dun feel super happy abt it. Probably feel tt the effort i put in dun justify the bonus tt i got. So i'm pretty sick of it anyway. Probably b'cos of this, i seems not to put in >100% effort nowadays. As long as i can get the things done, who cares man! Then in Jun, i defintely need to take my exams so i was wondering if i tender then i dunno i can still apply for leave or not. Hmm... so it seems like Jul will be the earliest, then i gonna give 2 mths notice, so by tt time it'll be around Sep. Well, then i shall go Europe n backpack during the autumn, dreaming rite?
Although i noe tt my boss will be reluctant to let me leave, but i doubt he can give me a mth break. So this is the only solution tt i can come up wif. Mayb boss wil be sad, cos i make so much $$ for him, my mom even comment tt i'm his $$ tree. My boss will be feeling tt he teached me so many things n now i wanna leave so all his effort will be wasted. But somehow i dun feel guilty cos all these yrs, i have been putting in my best effort to perform. Comeon loh, i really need a LONG LONG BREAK! I just dun wan to live wif regrets in my life for not doing the things tt i wanna do most.
