Tuesday, 25 September 2007
I guess i must v tired of wat i've doing all these while tt i've reach the point tt i HATE it. I seldom have such strong feeling for anything. I must be on the verge of the breaking point.
I think i'm those type of people who once start to like something, i can really like it v much no matter what. But once i dislike something, no matter what, i will dislike it v strongly. Cos for the past few days, my feelings for disliking grew stronger n stronger although nothing stimulates it. Once i dislike it, my heart n soul disappear.
I have been giving careful thoughts for the past few days. I've been considering when is it rite time, now to me, Jul08 seems such a distance from me. Ytd i was thinking, i doubt i'll have the energy to wait until Jul08, y not end it after CNY? Just get a mth then pack n go. I was considering whether 4-5mths of time is worth a mth of bonus. To my conclusion, $ is not everything. If halfway through, i really break down, then even 2-3 mths of bonus is not worthawhile.
Then today, i suddenly feel like packing n go next mth, i feel tt my feet r dragging me n how long can i withstand? I just mention tt $ is not everything, but if i pack n go next mth, my financial will have a bit of problem. Tt's y previously i feel tt the earliest time is after CNY, by then, i'll finished paying my CPF liability n plus the next few mths of saving, shld be able to substain me for a while. Ytd i was just telling my mom tt now i dun have any family commitment isn't it good tt i rest for a while? With family commitment, i doubt i can make such a decision easily. Then today, i feel tt even without family commitment, i still have so many things to consider. Ahhhhh.......... y is life so complicated?
