Is it that when we grow up, we have more n more worries? When recalling my childhood memories, i dun have so much 2 worry abt... just eat, play, sleep... so good.... Y when i'm young, i keep wanted to grow up? Cos @ tt pt of time, i feel tt i wanna noe a lot of things so i wanna grow up as fast as possible. Now when i'm an adult, i wanna become kids again... Human r to greedy... When u dun have it, u wan it. When u have it, u dun wan it.
Comparing to the people surrounding me, they seems to have more problems than me. Sometimes, be contented with wat u have is oso happiness. Seems like my worries r work n study. At least financial wise, i'm still ok... Currently my only debt is study loan but my liabilities will end in this coming Dec n i'll be debt free.... So mayb for the next 1-2 yrs, i shld be debt-free unless i bought a car or a house. Recently have a friend who have some financial problem, this really make me consider whether my dream of owning a car is really a realistic dream or not? Cos my friend gonna sell his car as he could not afford it next yr as he will be unemployed by then. But even after selling his car, he still have 2 owe the bank >$10k. Currently, this figure seems like an astonishing figure 2 me, mayb in the future, to me, it's peanuts, haha.... Well, back to the topic, after my friend case... i think i gonna think n plan wisely. Anyway my friend keep advising me tt unless i have plenty of disposable cash then i shld buy a car, otherwise dun think abt it... Hmmm... mayb i really dun appreciate my friend advise then n now when i saw tt he run into such situation, i became more appreciative of his advise le... Although $$ is not everything but without $$ u can't do anything...
Recently my mood is not fluctuating so much, mayb have something 2 look 4wd 2. Cos for the past few weeks, i've been feeling v down. I've told myself mentally tt i'm not gg 2 think abt so much at this moment cos think so much oso no use cos i dun think i'll put it into action. N having a trip 2 look 4wd 2 is oso good, at least it will divert my attention. Nowadays, only gg 4 trips will keep me motivated n substained me for the difficulties tt i've 2 endure n overcome. Mayb 1 yr ago, i would say study will motivate me but after so long, i haven't complete it n it's a bit offtrack from my plan. I started to become demotivated instead of motivated. I'm been complaining tt study is so hard especially juggling wif studies n work @ the same time. N it's not gg as smooth as wat i've plan. My mom n friends must be enduring wif my complains for the past 3 yrs. Although i've not reach my destination yet, but i reaching soon, just 2 more papers 2 go if everything goes smoothly... I dun wan 2 disappoint myself n the people who have been giving me support... 俗话说：“吃的苦中苦，方为人上人”。
Whenever i reach a certain age, i always have to make some major decisions. It's like i'm @ the cross-junction, deciding whether to go left, right, front or back. Actually since young, we always been in the cross-junction, it's just we didn't notice it cos everything has been planned 4 us. Don't believe, let me list them down: When we r 5 yrs old, we attended kindergarden, then @ 7 yrs old we went on to Primary School, @ 13 yrs old, we went to Secondary School, @ 17 yrs old we either went to JC or Poly... C.... everything has been planned, it's just a matter of which school u wanna attend... @ 19 when i graduate, i've decided tt i wanna become auditor n study ACCA. Now @ 23, i wonder wat i wan now? Well, i just need some time to sort out my thought... I always feel tt i'm someone who can determined my destiny cos i always noe wat i wan. Just a matter of time. So i oso hope tt my sis can give it a thought n decide wat she wanna do n work towards to achieving it instead of keep 兜圈子。。。
